Today. SOS – I am falling apart. August 7, 2009.
I am totally overwhelmed. Being on drugs does not help for sure. Managing bipolar disorder means that the drugs combination is not unlike over – or undershooting, but it is never hitting the target. I feel like I cannot wake up, I cannot move my body, I cannot concentrate, I cannot think and everything goes at a much faster pace that Ican manage. The general feeling is “Can I die now, please?”
What to do?
Maybe most of you do not know what the word Soviet actually means. The first meaning is Advice, the second is Counsel. So coming from this great country of Advice, there is never lack of it.
Take one step at a time. Thank you. It is usually how it is done. I need one leg to stand on. Unless I jump. I hope not from my balcony. Well, I am joking now. But with bipolar you never know.
Anyway coming back to the steps and sequence. I already revealed my big secret – I love dancing. I want to open my own business – a dance studio. “What are your qualificatons?” — I told you. I have Masters in Engineering from Moscow and a Bachelor Degree in IT from DeVry. No, I cannot teach dance myself. But it is my passion. I know it will happen some day. Dance is what brings me joy.
This post is an exercise in free style writing. There is a free style dancing as well – not choreographed by others, but a dance which allows to express yourself. Children do it all the time. They are my inspiration. I love children just as much as I love dancing.
Ok, but for managing my “life dance” I do need choreography. Some of it.
choreography
dance composition
Main
the art of creating and arranging dances. The word derives from the Greek for “dance” and for “write.” In the 17th and 18th centuries, it did indeed mean the written record of dances. In the 19th and 20th centuries, however, the meaning shifted, inaccurately but universally, while the written record came to be known as dance notation.
( the definition is from http://www.britannica.com/EBchecked/topic/114504/choreography)
But last year at Chapters, I flipped through a wonderful book “Eyewitness Book. Dance. Discover the world of Dance — from the magic of Ballet to the drama of Flamenco” by Dr. Andree Grau.
It had a few interesting facts and thoughts. Such as “dance is a gift from the immortals”. Chora in Ancient Greek originally meant “the source of joy”.
Order and Rhytm are the main qualities of dance, but were also the qualities of the gods.
So, for me now, I should find the right order and rhytm, and begin to dance, no matter what. So I start with the music. For some reason I tend to listen to a lot of arabic melodies now. Whatever keeps me alive.
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