In a Nutshell

When everything is coming your way, you are in the wrong lane and going the wrong way.

Why did I pick this joke today?  I feel very much like I am in the “wrong” lane driving under influence.  Driving?  Not even driving.  All my wheels were taken off and I am just sitting there and taking all the blows “head-on”.  How much can I take?  I shall see.

What is it all about?  I mean, my web site is as strange as I am.  I am a dreamer, I want to achieve certain things but I have no idea how.  So, I write.  I know that most people are not in my category.  But what is my category?  Overeducated, unemployed, middle aged woman affected by drugs.  I am so alone.  There must be plenty of other people who are lost in this life.  I met some of them, people whose stories were so similar to mine.  But it does not give me a clue how to get out of my “wrong lane” and out of my vehicle without wheels.  When I asked my doctor “What is my diagnosis, after all?” he admitted that I am a controversial case.  All my conditions are drug-induced.  I do not feel so great.  Sometimes when I closely watch other people I suspect that they are not so well in their heads either.  Maybe they are on drugs, too.  Thank you so much for the Pharmaceutical Industry.  Maybe without drugs I would not have made it.  But being on this “trip” is no fun either.

I picked a book in a library by Mark Albion “Making a life, making a living.  Reclaiming your purpose and passion in business and in life.”  It is an inspirational book stating that you can make it happen.  You can turn your life around and live a meaningful life.  But how?  “Step out of the vehicle, please.”

(1 votes, average: 5.00 out of 5)

 Loading ...

Posted on August 17th, 2009 under Chapters • Tags: bipolar, diagnosis, direction, drugs, sense of direction. • • RSS 2.0 feed • Leave a response, or trackback