Conversation with T (he) Pain.
Trying to stick to the theme – LOVE. I fell in love but again not with a person, but with an illusion. I will see how February turns out. I made a resolution – to disappear from his horizon starting February 1st. Keeping resolutions is, of course, much harder than making them. So, we talked on February 3rd. Does not matter. From now on, I have to disappear…
Why would I want to forget?
I cannot write. About anything. Yes, that bad.
Forget about love. Not happening.
Not making love, not falling in love.
Only forgetting.
I will forget, forget, forget…………………………………………………………………
“You will not touch my heart”
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M0aO5ZVK_C4
You will not touch my heart;
you will not take it and break it.
Just go and never return.
Without you, I will still be alive.
My pain… I cannot describe it. I am having a conversation with my Pain.
Yet, it will go away, too.
My wings, I will give them to passers-by…
There is only one thing left, to replace love with something else…
Point of No Return. Countdown: Ready, set, go!!!
Conversation:
He: I will return.
Me: You will forget about my existence in a month or two.
And, no, you will not return.
He: No, I will not forget. Maybe you will forget me in a month.
So, the clock is set. Ciao, darling, ciao. Let’s see who is more forgetful. Not that I don’t know. I wish I could forget so easily. It is a skill, maybe I should master it?
Another skill to master – insight – trusting intuition.
Why did I fall in love with non-entity?
When it is hopeless, should I still hope?
Maybe I should. There must be the one who would be able to return my feelings. That clock has been set when I was born. Still nobody is in sight… insight.
Tango – When it is hopeless
«Знать и чувствовать, что злое «никогда» – не просто слово, а моя судьба, что учит без надежды жить любя…»
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NyooF_UTJAk&feature=related
To know and feel that spiteful “never” is not just a word, but my fate that teaches me to continue living with love and without hope…
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Posted on February 4th, 2010 under Chapters, Conversations, English, Songs in Russian Language • Tags: Conversations, existence, fate, heart, hopes, love, love story, pain, point, point of no return. •
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