Slow Death by Indecision

Svetlana — Thu, 07 Oct 2010 04:42:14 +0000

Waiting is painful.

Forgetting is painful.

But not knowing which to do is the worse kind of suffering.

// Esperar duele.

Olvidar duele.

Pero el peor de los sufrimientos es no saber qué decisión tomar. (Paulo Coelho)

Hope fuels indecision and prolongs pain

That was so me. Now, I guess I have an intention to have a plan. Only an intention. I need a manual on “How to move on?” or “How to figure out who is worthy of my love?” in 1001 days………………… No, really?

Incident Report. Analysis

Svetlana — Sat, 30 Aug 2008 16:10:21 +0000

And here comes analysis. That is where people always tell me to do it in traditional ways. Do as you are told to do things. But no, I do something else. That is my crime – doing things my way. The punishment varies. Julian Craft gave this report “A minus” and I received “A” for the entire course. So, I guess, I did well in professional writing. The only problem that remains – I continue writing, but it is not my profession.

At 8:00 PM, on Monday, August 14, 2000, I finally sat to complete my incident report. My original understanding of the assignment was that I had to disengage myself from the events in the class and describe the incident in the parking lot as if I were an eye witness to it. My handwritten report clearly reflects my original intention. However, when I started typing this report, I realized that that scenario was impossible. If I had to engage my imagination then I would have stepped on a slippery road of constructive processing of the event which is inadmissible in writing incident reports. Firstly, it is very unlikely, that if I was somewhere I did not know where I was. Secondly, I am not deaf yet, and if I were a witness of an incident, I would have heard something. Thirdly, although I do not consider myself too observant, I have a tendency of noticing many details in real life or remembering phrases exactly as they were said. However, my ability to pay attention and recollect continuity of flickering TV shots and their contents is far less sharp than my ability to recollect events of real life. I attribute it to the compressed nature of videotapes. If I had to run to the parking lot, it would have taken me longer than a split of a second. Lastly, the total absence of emotion makes this simulation is less real. Apart from my ongoing frustration, I cannot say that I was not in emotional state. Therefore, I think that the incident was a lesson in Professional Writing and the outcome will be a submitted report.

I am going to submit this report to Julian Craft at 9:00 AM on Tuesday, August 15, 2000. After that, I will have no further control of the outcome of this incident.

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