Black Horoscope

Libra

Since it is the symbol of Libra, the very word “Balance” makes you feel sorry to be born under this sign. Having an ordinary object to represent your sign must not feel too flattering, indeed. In addition, you don’t know how to assert yourself. Because solitude is your phobia, you line up with people who are the strongest ones since you are convinced that they will not let you down. You don’t really have a private life. You live for others and according to what they think of you. You strive to please, which implies that you are hypocritical and hesitant about everything you say… You probably constantly feel that you are on the razor’s edge: not a single word missing, or in excess, not a single mistake. Otherwise war will break out, and this… No need to add more! Your self-proclaimed artistic bent is nothing but vapidity and mawkishness. In truth, you are too intellectual and cold. A calculator with a charming smile is the description that fits you best.

Source: http://www.astrotheme.com/files/black-zodiac.php

...but the satisfaction of desire only leaves the Scorpio soul still hungry for something beyond...

Source: http://vi.sualize.us/view/kallini2002/161d695b22f964939afdc47e2b403517/

The Scorpio Love Mystery

As it enters its second experience in the Water element, the now mature soul welcomes the chance for meditation through a return of the negative feminine Night Forces of the Scorpio consciousness.  On a public level, Scorpio is enormously capable of executing the now very familiar duties as a Fixed Organizer.  On a personal level, Scorpio is troubled to discover that he faces for the first time the awesome mystery of his own existence.  Where did he come from? – where is he going? – why is he here?  Scorpio must tear the veil from life, regardless of the cost, to quiet his restless spirit, suddenly released from its former preoccupation with earthly needs alone, as he cries out: “I DESIRE!”

There is much that the Scorpio soul knows… but even more that is sensed and cannot yet be defined.  The Scorpio vibration brings such a burning need to penetrate the unknown that it must be buried beneath deep layers of calm reason, or it would consume the mind and sear the soul.  Lessons well remembered from Libra softness and impartial judgment have made Scorpio wary of expressing opinions to those who would tear them apart.  The strong Scorpion instinct for survival springs from a deep-seated fear that he who is not forearmed will be destroyed.  Each defeat sustained by Scorpio only strengthens the inner conviction that the first loyalty must be to his or her own personal integrity.  For Scorpio sense that if the self is lost, then all is lost.

On the Scorpio level of consciousness, the soul is newly aware of the relationship between birth, death, sex and religious truth.  Scorpio knows that, in some mystical way, these are intertwined.  Therefore, sex becomes something intimately explored with an intensity unknown to those either behind or ahead Of Scorpio’s stage of evolvement.  Although Scorpio trusts love only after is has proven itself deserving of such trust, once dedicated to another, loyalty is unswerving and eternal.  Feeling fiercely the need to protect themselves and those they love from hurt, Scorpio is compelled to demand “an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth” as insurance that injures will not be repeated.

Through the subtle influence of the ruling planet Pluto, the experience of death comes to the Scorpio soul, as friends and relatives pass away, increasing the need to penetrate even deeper for the knowledge buried in the silent subconscious.  While Scorpio’s spirit soars upward like the eagle, defying gravity, worldly desires and passions intensify, forcing him to question his own worthiness.  Ultra-sensitive, but now able to totally disguise such sensitivity, Scorpio now learns the amazing power of his or her own mind – the silent will – and uses it secretly, lest others learn how to use the same kind of power over him – or her.  The Scorpio consciousness is the period of the soul’s testing.

Scorpio’s positive qualities are loyalty, will power, magnetism, gentleness, insight and amazing self-control.  Expressed in their negative form they become ruthlessness, fanaticism, revenge, sadism, suspicion and self-hatred.

To Scorpio men and women, love is a consuming flame, worth any sacrifice – and they must conquer its challenge.  Sexually uninhibited, yet emotionally fearful and mentally suspicious, they strive desperately to unite love’s physical and spiritual vibrations, with a strange mixture of eroticism and purity.  But the satisfaction of desire only leaves the Scorpio soul still hungry for something beyond.

Libra knows: he -- or she -- must not be alone when winter comes

The Libra Love Mystery

Turning from the lonely Virgo path of self-discipline, the evolving soul reaches out once again to the positive Day Forces, as the Libra vibration seductively beckons to it to accept, for the third time, the challenge of Cardinal leadership.  In the Libra consciousness, the soul is fully grown, aware now of both sunshine and shadow.  During the struggle for maturity which culminated in Virgo, it has learned that there is in the world (and in people) both night and day – good and evil – dark and light.  Beyond that, Libra is consumed with the intriguing polarity of male and female.

Experience has taught Libra men and women to judge their fellows fairly.  Until the Libra level, the soul’s interest has been centered primarily on itself.  Now it expands to include, for the first time, an awareness of the necessity to relate to other human beings.  The soul is now equipped with the lessons of five previous levels, capable of leading with both logic and force.  Libra acts with a blend of wisdom composed of knowledge gained through one excursion into WATER and from twice experiencing FIRE, EARTH and AIR.  “I BALANCE”, says Libra, priding himself or herself on seeing both sides.  Because it shatters Libra’s conscience to be unfair, decisions are difficult and painful.  A sense of social justice is emerging, and in the face of prejudice or intolerance, Libra often turns to endless argument, using the cold logic learned through Gemini and sharpened through Virgo.  But this approach is softened by a new sense of the value of persuasion.  Libra has acquired the quality of charm, which he has discovered is a sure way to win, so he artfully uses a mellow voice and dazzling smile to cajole and get his way with others.

Libra feels a growing awareness of beauty of harmony – in music, art and romance.  As Librans subconsciously recall their Virgo loneliness, they experience the stirring of a deep and primal urge to find a mate.  Sentimental, yet practical, the Libra soul instinctively knows the need for someone to walk nearby, in both love and business, in order to balance Life and satisfy the desire for harmony of Libra’s ruler, Venus.  In the Libran Air Element, however, a love partner is not easy to find.  When the vices and virtues of prospective mates are weighed and balanced on the Libra Scales, they often are found wanting, bringing on the anguish of emotional indecision.  But through it all, this man or woman continues the relentless search for someone to share life’s joys and sorrows.  The autumn season so loved will someday fade, the spring so fondly remembered is long past, and there is one thing Libra knows: he – or she – must not be alone when winter comes.  And so Librans respond to sunset’s beauty, sadly sensing simultaneously that for all is crimson-gold glory, it nevertheless announces another approaching night of the soul.

Libra’s positive qualities are justice, intelligence, charm, gentleness and emotional balance.  Expressed in their negative form they become laziness, procrastination, indecision, argumentativeness, pleasure-seeking and temperament.

To Libra, love is a mating of the minds and hearts – not too passionate, not too detached – a happy medium, to be equally shared.  But these souls are too infatuated with love’s surface beauty to penetrate completely its deeper implications.  They recognize only that they love.  It has not occurred to them to wonder why.

...as man and woman evolve around the astrological karmic circle...

Source: http://vi.sualize.us/view/a88fcaef202af1d3a168db985111f343/

The Twelve Initiations of Love

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In each of the following experiences, man or woman is fully capable of giving and teaching others the first quality, but for the personality to learn the second quality is a struggle.  When one’s understanding of this second quality equals that of the first, he or she has achieved mastery of a particular Sun Sign.  The Soul must pass more than once through the First Six Initiations of Love as:

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After achieving emotional maturity in these first six stages of development, man and woman must then pass through love’s Final Six Initiations (more than once) to discover its deeper spiritual meaning in:

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and to realize at last that

Love Is Eternal

I have only “published” insane conversations so far.  But this one was a good one.  It would be even better if we actually met.  We did not.  But, I enjoyed talking to this man.  So, here it goes:

He: nice top

She: the best part is actually my brain

He: that’s what meant

She: yeah, right!!!!!!!!!!!

He: cross my heart

He: (didn’t mind your outfit though

She: Let me pretend I believe you. I love playing a moron – it is so much fun!

He: your far too witty for that

He: (and sexy)

She: you have no idea!

He: about your wit or your sexuality?

She: I am afraid – both, men routinely run away from me – it is not funny anymore

He: I’ve never been much of a runner – more of a cyclist

He: and I do love to “ride”

He: so why do men run from you

She: Oh?

She: intimidated

He: really – I love a confident woman – very sexy

She: you will be put to test

He: really – how so

He: I’m getting excited already

She: that is only face to face

She: tet a tet

He: sounds like fun – sort of like close personal contact

He: (did I tell you I love to be teased)

She: really? why?

He: it’s fun. Love the sensation of excitement. Love to please. Love to make things last

He: for both me and my partner

Yes, I need a man to explore my passions, desires, fantasies and I want to let go, I want to be myself, I want PASSIONATE LOVE

He: ok – I’m assuming that a confident woman like yourself enjoys the effect you have on a man

She: no, not really, I am still looking for someone equal or someone who can challenge me

He: intellectually, I assume

She: both

He: something tells me we just might get along

She: would be nice

She: tell me more about yourself

He: single, never married, bit of a solitary creature but gregarious at times

He: looking for a friend and a lover

She: how come you have not found one yet?

He: good question. Not sure. Maybe I’m looking for a mistress

He: a confident – a friend and a lover

He: with whom to explore

He: a woman who is confident in herself and her sexuality

She: I am not sure I am the ONE

He: why do you say that – what are you looking for

She: a friend and a lover to go steady for a while

She: tired of looking and not finding the ONE

She: I was married for 16 years

He: I think we may have much in common – what do you enjoy

She: dancing

He: tell me about you

He: I’d love to watch you dance

He: that would be very sexy

She: maybe

He: maybe you would dance for me or maybe it would be sexy

She: it is always sexy

He: I’m starting to think you need a man who would help you unleash yourself, your passions and your fantasies

She: you are close

He: you need a man with whom you could be yourself

She: true

He: and a man with whom you could explore your passions

He: your fantasies

He: and your desires

She: are you trying to seduce me?

He: yes

She: keep going

He: how am I doing?

He: you need a man with whom you feel comfortable enough to be sexually free, with whom you could explore your passions and “let go”

She: what is your sign?

He: Libra

She: ok

He: ok?

She: as long as you are not a Taurus

He: that would be a lot of bull – I’m apparently well balanced – and you

He: what brings you here – what are you looking for

She: I am a Halloween Girl

She: All my significant men were Tauruses – too many to be a mere coincidence

He: and you are no longer looking for a Taurus – what are you looking for

He: do you know

She: The best match (they say should be a Virgo), but I assume that I need a transitional relationship

She: I am too intense – Scorpio – quite unlike normal women

He: I applaud your honesty – I think that is exactly what you are looking for – and nothing wrong with that at all

She: I know – there is one man who is trying to seduce me, but it takes him forever

He: I see. Tell me, would you let m seduce you – make love to you, please you, entice you explore with you

He: let you explore, let you be yourself

He: let you be whoever you want to be

She: but I have to see you first

He: so perhaps you would allow me to buy you a drink

She: Deal

He: that would be very nice -

From: me

Subject: Pictures

To: Libra Man

I am certainly not a morning person, more of a night owl, but these few days are an exception for me.  I just could not sleep.  I got a new job and maybe it is stress, I do not really know.  These guys that I met were not about chemistry at all – all they wanted was sex on their terms – not strings attached.  They need a woman to be on a “booty call” and they could not care less about her.  I am putting it bluntly, of course, they use “normal” acceptable phraseology, but it all boils down to sex only.  But that category was to respond first and first to come (of course! they are motivated)!!!.

That is what I personally do not understand.  I am a caring person; I care about my friends, my neighbours, people on the street and complete strangers.  I don’t have to be asked to help; I am always the first one to offer.

But I now, I learned “their language”, and I see them immediately.  It took me a week to eliminate this category and I have only been on LavaLife for a week.

I did respond to you, because I have a strategy.  I am being pro-active.  I take charge.  But it does not mean that a telephone number is an invitation to bed.  It is part of the process.  First we make contact, exchange e-mails, then talk on the phone and then a cup of coffee.  It is very similar to a job interview.  I am totally done with IM – it is insane and it is nothing but a waste of time.

I am trying to adjust the process as I go.  By the way, I always ask guys how it is going for them, because I am genuinely interested.  You are the only one to give me such a story.  Everybody else says that is going fine, thank you very much.

By the way, I could not see you that well on the picture either.

Do not worry about my number, just take your time.  A lot of guys do not call anyways.  The reason is that they are not interested.  The only thing that bothers me – why then they use the service if it costs so much.

Svetlana

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From: Libra Man

To: me

Sent: Tuesday, June 30, 2009 4:51:58 AM

Subject: RE: Pictures

Hey Svetlana, thanks for the pics..you look good to me

And I appreciate your openness..

But no, I didn’t think giving me your number was an invitation to bed lol.

It sounds like it’s all or nothing, and that’s where it stands for you. I understand that. I don’t know if I’m your type, but I can call you sometime if you’re still interested..maybe take it from there?

Here are a few other pics.

Libra Man

Date: Wed, 1 Jul 2009 08:09:21 -0700

From: me

Subject: My type?

To: Libra Man

How can I decide whether you are my type or not?  I haven’t even talked to you and I haven’t even met you.  Pictures are pictures, they do not tell much.  If you were to buy a real estate, would you go by a description and a picture?  If you were to buy new clothes, wouldn’t you try it on?

http://www.altrealm.com/conversations/2008-08-30/signs/

Read this short story “Signs”.  You only have “to flip coins”, when you do not know what it is exactly that you want.  When you know what you want, you will do it.  It is very easy, just common sense.

Besides, I did not understand what you mean exactly by “all or nothing”?  Does it really exist in this world?  I have a lot in my life – my family, my son, my friends and a new and exciting job.  Finding a man is not easy, but it is only a matter of time.  I am a “go-get-girl”, but not in a romantic relationship.  I am a woman and I want to be treated like one.  My femininity is not of a regular quality, but I can bet you anything, these simple and ordinary women have not a clue how to be seductive.  And no, dressing up the part is not enough.  Playing the part requires talent and skill, not a costume.

I never pursue men.  Never, ever, ever.

Weak, indecisive, wishy-washy, boring is certainly not my type.

Svetlana

From: Libra Man

To: me

Sent: Wednesday, July 1, 2009 5:47:51 PM

Subject: RE: My type?

 Re ‘type’ -that’s all I meant…  just expressing a little doubt

You know EXACTLY what ‘all or nothing’ means. It exists to 99% of all women! How many women do you know that are in a relationship just for the sex? If it doesn’t come with any more than that, it would be VERY short-lived.

You’ve been on lava for a week? I’ve been on it on/off for 14 yrs. It’s been little more than a social experiment, and the results aren’t encouraging. I’ve found most women are on it for attention, ego stroking, and teasing. I can lecture you on weak, indecisive, wishy-washy, boring, ..not to mention fickle Men have to pay to use the site, so we’re not in it to waste time/effort.

I’ve had a number of gfs off the site, but they were compromises. I’ve always believed having something is better than nothing..may be sad, but realistic.

I have to say, I liked your take on your ‘femininity’ So true about women just looking the part. I do find you a little intriguing

Libra Man

Date: Wed, 1 Jul 2009 15:37:53 -0700

From: me

Subject: Re: My type?

To: Libra Man

I felt like you were screaming at me.

Svetlana

From: Libra Man

To: me

Sent: Thursday, July 2, 2009 2:34:51 AM

Subject: RE: My type?

Sorry. Just venting Guess we both expressed a little frustration.

To let you know, I work nights from Mon-Thurs, so I can try calling you sometime Fri night or the weekend? I’m nicer on the phone ..and in person.

You set off any fireworks last night?         Libra Man

Date: Thu, 2 Jul 2009 00:20:39 -0700

From: me

Subject: Re: My type?

To: Libra Man

Apologies accepted.  I was not frustrated at all.  That is all in the past when I did not know enough about people, about myself and I could not communicate effectively.  Now, it became much much easier.  It is a skill, which can be developed.  Well, moving on.  I am supposed to work on Friday and Saturday from 9 am to 5 pm, but it might change.  The other person who was hired to work with me, has quit, so the schedule might be different.  You can try and call me, but I prefer when you let me know before you call (send an e-mail or something).  Otherwise I will be in the middle of something and it always feels a bit awkward.

I did not set any fireworks myself.  But my son was invited by his girlfriend to see Fireworks and I saw them all over the city from my balcony (I live in a Penthouse).  But that was certainly not the best part of my day.

Good night, night owl

Svetlana

So, I kept asking for an astrological sign, until I met a guy who amazed me and made me laugh.

Q: “What is your sign?”

A: “Stop!”

That was funny.  Later he said he was Libra, so it made sense, after all he needed to Stop to make a decision.  He told me that making decisions was hard for him and he usually “flips a coin” to make one.  I believed him.  That’s what I often do until I see that is not the case.  I had no intention to test his words.  But life tends to put everything to test and I saw this Libra make a decision and stick to it with such devotion and strength that I was amazed. Again.

For myself, I picked quite a few “signs”: “Go”, “NO EXIT”, “U-Turn”.

There is another bunch of signs: “I only look sweet and innocent”, “The views expressed by the husband are not necessarily those of the management”.