A Dark Horse

I have done this analysis before.  Once I walked in an Art Shop and met a nice young man by the name William who actually had read “Crime and Punishment” by Dostoevsky.  We had a heated discussion and I said that I was not quite sure that foreigners were even close to understanding Dostoevsky because of the way he wrote.  Something must be lost in translation.  William did agree, and expressed that “colour yellow” was lost in translation.  The discussion was not limited to “Crime and Punishment”, Dostoevsky, literature or colours for that matter.  At the time I was very much interested in the Personality Dimensions of Blue – Orange – Green – Gold variety and suggested that we find out William’s colours.  He said that he would be willing to do that only if I agreed to do go through the Cube Personality Test.  I don’t remember his colours, but I remember this story.

And I remember vividly my own results of the Cube Personality Test.  Do you know why William was so adamant about the Cube Personality Test?  He thought I was “so full of myself”.  He couldn’t be more wrong.

The questions he asked me were not exactly the same as I found just recently on the Internet, but I will try to tell the story as accurately as I possibly can.

First of all, there was no white room.  He asked me to imagine a scene and myself in it.  So I imagined myself on the ocean shore, walking on the beach, feet in the water, eyes looking down at my feet, occasionally looking up at the scenery, green and mountainous, beautiful beyond imagination.

Source: http://www.allposters.com/-sp/Salt-Cay-Turks-and-Caicos-Islands-Posters_i3689447_.htm

Cube.

I don’t remember whether he suggested that I should imagine a WHITE cube.  But I did.  It was far away in the ocean, fairly small in size.  So, I was not “full of myself” at all, far from it and my ego was smaller in 2008, than it is now in 2010.  But it is true, I have learned a lot from my experiences in these two years and I gained some confidence.  The fact that the cube was white…  Either it was according to his suggestion, or I did not hide from others who I was at that moment.

Flowers.

There were no flowers in his scenario.

Ladder.

Ladder was also white, fairly small in size, floating in the water, obviously in a horizontal position.  No interpretation needed.  No goals, no aspiration, no ambition.  Or all of it was in a slumber state.

Source: http://thumb18.shutterstock.com.edgesuite.net/photos/display_pic_with_logo/182188/182188,1242375239,1.jpg

By the way, it is not what I imagined, but when I was looking for an  image, I could not resist.  I so do love spirals and twists!

Horse.

He asked for the colour of the horse.  I had trouble picking between black and white.  I chose black in the end.  The horse was running towards me.  I don’t know why I was so perplexed with the horse images and still I remember mostly this horse.  In Russian, we have an expression “a dark horse”, meaning somebody with fairly inconspicuous looks who turns out to be a winner quite unexpectedly.  I guess it is the same in English.  If that horse is running towards me and I haven’t seen it yet, it probably means, that the horse has quite a journey.  I am still curious.  Really!

Source: http://www.blessedbylife.com/images/blackhorsebeach.jpg

That is my horse precisely, my dream has been photographed.

Rainstorm.

Rainstorm is far in the ocean, but the sky is darkening and the storm is quite serious.

Source: http://www.roadsideoregon.com/?cat=3

I don’t know about you, but I had fun doing this test.  I love imagery and it is quite memorable.  Now it is time to go back to my challenges (opportunities)!

By the way, I just decided to test my parents.  It was so much fun.  My mom’s ego is red and bigger than mine, my dad’s ego is BLACK (help! what does that mean?) and the same size as mine.  Really, you should try it!

Source: http://www.myweddingflowerideas.co.uk/wedding-bouquet/red-gerbera-bouquet-rge.jpg

Cube.

Well, the cube is red, a size of a side table, located in the center of the room and on the floor.  Interpretation: I am humble, grounded and the red colour of the cube might represent that my center is in my heart, small, but all-important.  Maybe because red is the colour of passion and I am a very passionate person.  Or maybe because in Russian “red” is synonymous with “beautiful”.  I do hide who I am from others, but only to a point.  I do consider myself to be fairly open.  The fact that my red cube is in the center of the room means that I (my ego, my heart, my brain, my mind) is the center of my universe.  Where else should it be?  I am still perplexed why I have picked the red colour, for it is not my favourite.  Maybe because walls are so white is this white room? LOL.

Flowers.

They are located on the perimeter, so there are a lot of them, all red Gerbera, natural Gerbera size.  Again, colour red.  I don’t have an explanation for the red colour in this case.  Love, passion, design?  I agree that I need family and a lot of friends, but at the moment they are not so close to me.  I wish they were, or at least I think I wish they were and I am trying to close the gap.

Ladder.

Ladder is white, from floor to ceiling and for that matter a fairly steep one (like in a submarine, or maybe not, I have never been on a submarine!), but it is located in a Northeast corner of the room.  I am not currently working on my goals.  But I am all in the preparation mode.  Last time I did the cube analysis, the ladder was just lying on the floor flat.  So, some improvement.

Horse.

One thing is clear, the horse is near me.  I could not decide what colour to pick (black or white), still indecisive.  Characteristics of a horse?  Mamma mia!  Intelligent, witty, philosophical, trustworthy, true friend.  No interpretation necessary.  Only a comment – there is no horse near me.  I am not in a relationship.

Rainstorm.

Rainstorm is all over the room.  Meaning…  I have way to many problems.  Or opportunities (never forget the Art of Reframing!)

The only reason I have copied this test is that I want to keep this information.  Web-sites change, appear and disappear.  I did not create this test, so I give you the source of information and I hope you enjoy that web-site.

Source: http://www.personality-and-aptitude-career-tests.com/cube-personality-test.html

11 Questions to Discover Your Hidden Personality Areas Within 90 Seconds!

The Cube personality test is a quick mental exercise that lasts approximately 90 seconds, and can be used to tell a great deal about a person, by asking them to imagine a situation. The Cube personality test requires a working imagination, but most people can successfully complete the test. When the test is given, the person taking the test must respond to each question as quickly as possible, saying the first things that they think of. You can easily use the Cube personality test as a party trick, or to get to know your friends or spouse easier. This article contains the Cube personality test, as well as what the responses to the questions on the test means.

The Test

Picture an enormous white room. In this room, there is a cube.

1.) What color is the cube?

2.) What size is the cube?

3.) Where is it located in the room? Is it floating, or on the ground?

Next, imagine flowers inside of this room.

4.) Where are the flowers located?

5.) How large are the flowers?

Next, imagine a ladder inside of the white room.

6.) Where is the ladder?

7.) What size is the ladder?

Next, imagine a horse in the white room.

8.) Where is the horse?

9.) Name three personality characteristics of the horse (mean, funny, sad, happy, etc).

Lastly, imagine a rainstorm inside the white room.

10.) Where is the rainstorm located?

11.) How large is the rainstorm?

Interpretation of the Answers

Once you have asked someone these questions, be sure to make a mental note of their answers. You can now easily use the answers that they gave, to reveal a great amount about their personality. The white room represents our lives. Inside of this white room, there is a cube. This cube is a representation of our ego, or how we see ourselves. If your cube is small, it means that you have a small ego, you are humble. If your ego is large, it means that you might be “full of yourself”. A colored ego means that you hide who you really are from people. A white or clear cube means that you do not put a show on for others. If the cube is on the ground, it means that you are well grounded in your views, and “down to earth”. If the cube is floating, it means that your life is unstable and unpredictable.

The flowers in the room represent your family and friends. If there are a lot of flowers in the room, it means that you prefer to be surrounded by friends and family. If the flowers are only a few, it means that you prefer only a few close friends. If your flowers are near the cube, it means that you are close to your friends. If your flowers are further away, you prefer to keep a distance between your friends.

The ladder inside the room represents your life’s goals and ambition. A small ladder means that you do not have any goals, or that your goals in life are small. If your ladder is large, it means that your goals and expectations for yourself are set higher than average. If your ladder is far away from your cube, it means that right now you are not working on your goals. If your ladder is on top of your cube, it means that your goals and ambitions are controlling you.

The horse inside of the room is your spouse. The three characteristics of the horse apply to your spouse, or what you like to see in your spouse. If your horse is close to the cube, it means that you are close to your spouse. When you see a beautiful horse it shows your beautiful experience with your spouse.

The rainstorm inside of the room is life’s problems. If your thunderstorm is large, it means that your life is hectic. If the thunderstorm is near another object (for instance, the horse), it means that that object is causing problems in your life. If you see small thunderstorm that means you are currently not facing too many difficulties or at least ignoring them.

While fun, the Cube personality test tells us a lot about each other, and helps us to understand each other. Although perhaps not the most accurate personality test (you will likely read objections from critics as to the accuracy of it), it still gives you a funny way to measure personality of another person. The Cube personality test has no known scientific origins, and has not been independently validated. Regardless, it is still a fun way to spend a few minutes with your friends, studying their responses.

Source: http://www.livbit.com/article/wp-content/uploads/2008/12/rubikscube_lamp2.jpg

If you are curious, you can read a couple of posts that will follow – I have done this Cube Personality Test twice.  Strangely enough, both times it was fairly accurate.

Victor Pelevin “The Sacred Book of Werewolf”

He smiled paternally, and I decided I must have got stuck with one of those soulful clients.  Those men who don’t just want your body for their two hundred bucks, but your soul as well.  They’re the ones who really wear you out.  To stop a soulful client getting carried away, you have to be morose and unsociable.  Let the nice man think the girl’s got adolescent problems.  During the period when their personalities are taking shape, teenagers are unsociable and uncommunicative, as every paedophile knows very well.  Therefore, that kind of behaviour rapidly inflames a pervert’s lust, which results in a saving of time and is helpful in obtaining better payment for your work.  But the important thing here is to shut yourself in the bathroom in good time.

Some foxes who live in North America and Europe take a scientific approach to the use of this effect.  That is, they think they take a scientific approach, because they prepare by reading the literature that ‘reveals the soul of the modern teenager’.  They are particularly fond of reading alleged fifteen-year-old authors who specialize in removing the panties from the inner world of their generation with a shy blush on their cheeks.  It’s ridiculous, of course.  Teenagers don’t have any common internal dimension – just as people of any other age don’t.  Each of them lives in his or her own universe, and these insights into the soul of the young generation are the market’s simulacra of freshness for the consumer who’s surfeited with anal sex on video, something like the chemical scent of lily-of-the-valley for toilets.  A fox who wants to imitate the behaviour of a modern teenager accurately shouldn’t read those books: instead of making you look like a teenager, they’ll turn you into an old theatrical queer acting out a travesty.

I believe that.  When I am in trouble and show all the signs of distress, you know how many people come to actually help?  Just about 12% percent.  I was crying, I was hysterical or not.  I was simply asking for help.  It is hard to get.  In year 2007, when I had my nervous break down and I was attending the JVS Program, I was not asking for much.

Just make me laugh.  The response – I can’t, I won’t, what are you “insane”!!!

So, I came to certain conclusions.  Blue People (the True Ones) are a rare breed.

That is what the JVS Manual has to say about Blues:

BLUEs water and fertilize people, and people blossom under their guidance.  The BLUE hates to be categorized – too impersonal.  They tend to take everything personally, and are “hyper-aware” of the reaction of others.  Teh BLUE reads people as others read books. They are “people-people” and crave relationships with others.

All four temperament styles tend to think everyone else is on the same mission.  In the case of the BLUE, they think the whole world is clamouring for self-actualization and growth.  Althought they are only 12% of the population, they exert a much greater influence.  Usaully they have very good verbal skills and are articulate.  They write many self-help books (i.e. “The Power of Positive Thinking”, “Psycho Cybernetics”, “Visualizing Success”, etc.)

Blues are usally adept at many things and may need to channel their interests and energies in one direction.  They love harmony in relationships, hate to argue and want everyone to get along.  They are uncomfortable with dissension, want to patch things up and are natural “smoother-outers”.  The BLUE tends to be idealistic and future oriented.  They have visions of everyone getting along together —- “Why can’t this be a nice place?” or “Peace on earth and good will to men”.

Careers with appeal to BLUES include teaching (they represent 38% of the teachers), writing, drama, counselling and psychology.  They gravitate toward occupations in which they can influence others.  BLUEs have difficulty with administration because they are too empathetic and tend to be rule benders.

AUTHENTIC BLUE

Ö        Attention-getting misbehaviour

o       (every time They kicked me out, it was for Disruptive Behaviour!!!)

Ö        Withdrawal

Ö        Fantasy, day-dreaming, and trancing out

Ö        Crying and depression

Ö        Passive resistance

Ö        Yelling and screaming

INQUIRING GREEN

Ö        Indecisiveness

Ö        Refusal to comply or cooperate

Ö        Extreme aloofness and withdrawal

Ö        Snobbish, put-down remarks, and sarcasm

Ö        Refusal to communicate; the silent treatment

Ö        Perfectionism due to severe performance anxiety

Ö        Highly critical attitudes towards yourself or others

RESOURCEFUL ORANGE

Ö        Rudeness and defiance

Ö        Breaking the rules intentionally

Ö        Running away and dropping out

Ö        Use of stimulants

Ö        Acting out boisterously

Ö        Lying and cheating

Ö        Physical aggresiveness

ORGANIZED GOLD

Ö        Complaining and self-pity

Ö        Anxiety and worry

Ö        Depression and fatigue

Ö        Psychosomatic problems

Ö        Malicious judgements about yourself and others

Ö        Authoritarianism and phobic reactions

Personality Dimensions in Action.

Differences are desirable.

This is just a tool! (For a fool!)

It cannot and does not explain all human behaviour.

Use it when it is helpful for understanding yourself and others.

Use it for improving your communication with others.

Use it for motivating and gaining cooperation from others.

Set it aside when it is not helpful.

Almost verbatum from Personality Dimesions.

1. April 23, 2007    — Intake.

2. May 7, 2007       — Career Exploration Group, Day 1 (Facilitator #1 and Facilitator #2).

3. May 14, 2007     — Crisis, immediate intervenion, immediate counselling resources.

4. May 14, 2007    — Life Crisis Counsellour # 1 (Not JVS)

5. May 15, 2007    — Crisis – Manager – Intervention: “We cannot have in the group”.  Why? Because you disrupt the workshop for other participants. (In other words, they kicked me out).

6. May 16, 2007   — Action Plan # 2 – Scarborough Grace Hospital (Smart Move!!!)

I am searching for the place where I belong.  I am not particularly successful.  It is amazing, but it brings no money. Not yet.  Last year, I attended a career exploration workshop.  I did not last there long.  They kicked me out.  That was the first time.  When they kicked me out of the Job Finding Club a year later, I was able to see a pattern.  Of not belonging.  Of not doing the right things.  Or not doing the things right.  Whatever.  Writing may not be the answer, either.  There is a book in Chapters, called “Love” or something like that.  It claims that love is the answer, a solution, or maybe – absolution?  I have to check.

Anyway, going back to colours.  Attending that career exploration workshop brought some results.  I was diagnosed.  Really? Not really. Not in that sense.  I found out about Personality Dimensions.  Apparently, there are four basic dimensions which are represented by four (obviously!) colours.  Gold, Green, Orange and Blue.

Or to be more specific:

Organized Gold (The Manager)

Inquiring Green (The Scientist)

Resourceful Orange (The Doer)

Authentic Blue (The Helper).

So my colours are Blue, Orange, Green and Gold.  It is really amazing how true it is and how much we can find out about ourselves.  Rather quickly.  I still have the brochure. The information that was distributed.  And when I show it to others (that is still legal!) most people are able to pinpoint their major colour.  Even the colours that we pick what to wear, note pads, anything can tell tons of information!