Love may be blind but marriage is a real eye-opener.

It is a Saturday, a sunny and cold day in Toronto.  In 1993, February 6^th was a Saturday, it was sunny in the morning and cold, the roads were slippery (talk about signs!!!), but then it warmed up enough for a real snow storm in the night.

So, today is my wedding anniversary with my first husband to whom I am no longer married.  I am not divorced from him either.  The divorce is still in the process…

I often wonder when the break up really happened and who broke what… and honestly I don’t know.  The saddest part is that I still care.  The best part is… well, the best part remains to be discovered.

Another chapter in my journey.  As much as I am unable to do anything these days or write anything, I could not miss this day.  I should make a post.  And, surprisingly enough it turns out to be the post # 342 (here it comes again, my number 42).  Madness?  Eccentricity? 

“Marriage is the triumph of imagination over intelligence. Remarriage is the triumph of hope over experience…”

 

“The secret of a happy marriage remains a secret.” – Henny Youngman.

 

 

“I never knew what real happiness was until I got married; and then it was too late.”

 

 

“I think weddings are sadder than funerals, because they remind you of your own wedding. You can’t be reminded of your own funeral because it hasn’t happened. But weddings always make me cry.” – Brendan Behan (1923-64) Irish playwright.

 

 

“Three rings of marriage: The engagement ring, the wedding ring, and the suffering.”

 

 

“I was married by a judge. I should have asked for a jury.” – George Burns.

 

 

“Marriage is for women the commonest mode of livelihood, and the total amount of undesired sex endured by women is probably greater in marriage than in prostitution.” – Bertrand Russell (1872-1970), British philosopher, Marriage and Morals.

 

 

“Many a man owes his success to his first wife and his second wife to his success.” – Jim Backus.

 

 

“By all means marry. If you get a good wife, you’ll be happy. If you get a bad one, you’ll become a philosopher.” – Socrates.

 

 

“The trouble with some women is that they get all excited about nothing — and then marry him.” –Cher

“Writing is like prostitution. First you do it for love, and then for a few close friends, and then for money.” 

Moliere quotes (French Actor, Playwright and Writer the greatest of all writers of French comedy, 1622-1673)

The reason I looked up “prostitution” quotes today was that I was going to write about the film “Babysitters”.  The film was somewhat strange and unsettling for me.  I am certainly in the transition stage from whoever I was before and whoever I will become in the future.  I ask myself numerous questions and “the answers” from the past are no longer valid.  The struggle is to find the new answers.  I am literally changing day by day.  I do accept a lot, I forgive, maybe forget and this journey is amazing.  This is why I selected a song today “Endless Road” from the film “Niccolo Paganini”.  I know if you do not speak Russian, you do not understand the words.  Maybe I should translate?

And this Moliere quote was a revelation.  It did hit the nerve.  “Writing is like prostitution.”  Certainly this word has a lot of depth to it.  Violating one’s integrity for money would be one.  I do not even want to ask the question how many of us have to do it?

That brings me back to my writing about honesty which is one of my major weaknesses.

I am in the same loop again.  Honesty, integrity, prostitution?